Beached Whale

                  

I am just as bad at blogging as i am at writing in my journal. You would think with all the time i have had on my hands that i could do this every day if i wanted. Well lets get real, i spent the first 23 weeks of pregnancy with my head in the toilet and the rest until now, doing as little as possible.

i will not lie, i will not sugar coat. Pregnancy is hell, with a few sun rays here and there. Dont get me wrong when you get to see them on the ultrasound for the first time (and it doesnt look like you are going to have a gerbil for a child) or those first real kicks. Its AMAZING!

Let me try and catch everyone up without taking up hours of your time.

We are having a little girl! we were so stinking surprised, everyone was convinced that she was a boy. But we are not disappointed at all, in fact we are probably more excited!

I am currently 32 weeks and it has been the fastest, slow moving, time of my life. i have a very strong feeling that she is going to come early. i wont complain at all, as long as everyone is healthy.

I havent bought a single thing for this little on and i am starting to get a little stressed out.. my baby shower is in 2 weeks and after that i am aloud to buy whatever i want.

its daily that i get the feelings of inadequacy and then overwhelming excitement. Me and Charles send pictures to each other all the time of what we think she will look like, i think that is the most exciting part of it right now! i saw a quote on pinterest that said it perfectly. Having a baby is like picking someone up from the airport that you have no idea who they are, or what time their flight arrives.

well what else? I have never had cravings until the last week or so i have ate my body weight in ice. also while cleaning the tub the other day i had to mentally talk myself out of eating the entire container of comet. Im so tired of peeing and not sleeping well. Im over people telling me how tiny i am because i feel like im a obese whale.

But really i am so blessed to have the lord send this baby to us. im so grateful to be her mother and i cannot wait until the day that i finally get to see her perfect face. im scared out of my mind because i am now realizing that i dont know what the hell im doing, but it will all work out.

i will try to write more, but lets be honest, the next time you hear from me she will be going to prom.  

Oh yeah...

OK.....

Sorry if you are late to this party but this girl is with child! I have already told the social media and my personal world and realized i have not posted it here. So again, sorry for the abruptness but let me just give you the full story from the beginning.

People ask how long we have been "trying" well to answer that, the conversation where we decided we really were ready to have a baby happened about a week before we found out we were. But i have been off of birth control since December so it was about 7 months. I know that really isnt bad compared to some of the women out there, but when its you, thats a very long time.

About a month before we found out we actually thought i was and taking that negative test was a little sad and made me realize i would be okay if we did have a baby. So, then comes the next month and i am about 5 days late but i try to not get too excited (actually hid it from Charles) then one night we were sitting on the couch and he asked me when it should be. Long story short we end up at Maceys at 9:30 at night. We get up to the cashier and he asks us if we are hoping for a positive or a negative. We both say positive. He asks how long we have been married, trying etc. etc. and he tells us this whole story about how him and his wife tried for so long and had 3 miscarriages and then he got cancer which made him sterile, after they both stopped worrying about it, they now have 3 kids! needless to say he was amazing and so sweet and made me feel a lot better about it all.

The test was negative and i was heart broken i cried for a bit and then decided that it just wasnt meant to be. Charles kept telling me as we were in bed that he just had this feeling that the test was wrong. I was not convinced because i had no feelings of pregnancy, i felt exactly the same as i always did.

A couple days later i was sitting on my couch alone and still not having my period i thought maybe i would take the other test just for kicks and giggles. ( i have this weird thing where if i know something like that is in my closet i just have to take it. i once took one on my period just because it was there TMI i know haha) so i pee, set it on the counter, wash my hands, start to pick my face. Totally forgetting the task at hand until i look down, and to my surprise there it is! TWO pink lines!

Wow this is going long i am so sorry i will shorten it up.

I put a tampon in the garbage, Charles made another comment about me probably being pregnant and should take another test i firmly said "no im on my period so stop worrying!"

The next day i went and bought little baby beanies and wrapped them. When he got home i told him i had something for him. i said i just wanted to get him something to show him how much i appreciated everything he does for me and how much i love him. He opened the bag and practically tackled me, it was magical.

That is where i will have to end for today i do not want to bore you away. I will save the horror stories for tomorrow!

Sealing The Deal.

I last posted about my upcoming life changing moment where I would be taking out my endowments. I am beyond excited to report that not only will I be doing that, but my husband will be joining me and we will be getting sealed for time and all eternity!

Life is the craziest and I will never complain about that, we have had struggles in out marriage just like everyone else. But I know now more than EVER that I love Charles with all that I am and I never want to be without him. He is my soul mate (sorry if you dont believe in those) and my biggest fan. He makes me my best that I can be and I can only hope that I do half of that for him.

So Charles is going to be getting his patriarchal blessing in the next few weeks. We have 3 more weeks of temple prep. He will be getting the rest of the priesthood and then we will be sealed in the next few months :)

God is good.
XOXOX

Im Going There Some Day

 

So it is no secret to anyone who knows me or has seen this blog, I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and no, I did not get married in the temple.

I always knew though that I would be getting there one day. Its definitely is a lofty goal to achieve but luckily for me I have an amazing husband and family that have supported me so much through this long process.

Today I received my temporary temple recommend! I get to do baptisms, which I haven't done since I was 14. Next week I will be starting to take temple prep classes and when I finish there (about 3 months) I will be taking my endowments out :) Words cannot express how thankful I am to my savior and Father in Heaven. I know my life is about to change forever in the greatest way possible. Thank you to everyone who has supported me over the last year.

High Five!

My husband is so amazing!!

remember the last time i wrote and i said that he got a job so he could get his oil hauling job??

Well.. he already got the oil job! 

It all happened so fast and unexpected, but we definitely are not complaining.

He does so much for us and i could never thank him enough.

he is for sure my hero and role model.

His schedule has been pretty crappy though he leaves at three in the AM and goes to bed at seven.

I am missing the cuddling and pillow talk but we are working on making things work.

Well in case you still are wondering, i have the greatest husband ever!

Also only a week and a half left of school!! Se excited for a summer full of crafts, camping, and late nights meaning no more 5 AM mornings!!!!

xoxox 

HI WORLD!!

you guys!
my computer is finally fixed!
i have missed writing so much and it will be an adjustment to write again so bare with me on the struggle that is about to happen.

here are some things that have happened in the last several months.

^I GRADUATED!! oh man what a relief it was, so much hard work, time, studying and fun payed off and i love getting to look back on all i accomplished. I am not working anywhere right now, just my own little spa in my parents house in PG. I have some amazing clients and look forward to growing my business. 

^I work right now for Alpine School District. its nothing glamorous but its just a morning job that gives us some extra money and lets me have the rest of my day to work on clients.

^WE HAD OUR FIRST ANNIVERSARY! can you believe we made it? it went by so fast and i cant wait to have many more.

^We also went on our first real vacation. You know, not with our family or friends. Just the two of us. It was a great time we went to Vegas and did absolutely nothing haha it was so fun, we still are pretty money tight so we just went to a movie and the mall and normal stuff.

^Lastly Charles has started another new job that is hopefully something that will help him out to get a oil hauling job which is what the end goal is. Hes making a lot more money and we are getting to do more things together like date nights and hobbies, we love it.

well here is to a new beginning and hopefully more consistency!

You Are Always On My Mind

I realized after looking over my last few posts, that i repeated everything... sorry world.

so lets talk about something new.

here are a few things about my marriage that i dont think are that abnormal in marriages.

1. we dont get to spend much time together because we have to pay the bills.

2. we dont always get to pay the bills..

3. we are madly in love anyways.

4. grocery shopping makes me want to scream because i have no clue how im suppose to do it and make it budget friendly and not end up throwing half of it away.

5. by the time i get home from school i have no motivation to work out.

6. thus i have gained a substantial amount of depressing weight.

7. money is not our friend most days.

8. i want to decorate my house but their is that money thing again.

9. my husband is my world and i wouldnt change it for anything.

let me know of your marital moments, financial advice, and anything lovely.